Live life to the fullest

A few short months ago... My wife and I celebrated our 25th anniversary... not with gifts, but fun trips and memories. At Christmas, we went on a family excursion with my parents and sister's family to a bed in breakfast in the mountains. In the spring we enjoyed seeing my handsome son's college graduation, waiting to see the teacher he is meant to be. Then we were amazed at our beautiful and caring daughter's summer work ethic and waited each day to hear the tales from a day at work. Moving into June we planned the second annual family olympics / beach trip. This was something Tina came up with last year and has been better than any other vacation we've ever had! What a blast we all had with family and friends. Then in July we enjoyed the final month before school starts back. We even bought an air hockey table and new seats for the fire pit, because that is fun! Things change so fast. By the end of July, work was much harder due to changes there. A coworker moved on and the economy got tighter. Home got harder because my son stressed over finding the right job, my daughter worried about classes for next year and Tina didn't feel well. But we've been here before. We usually just made it through and came out closer on the other end. Then August came, and it was as if God turned His back on me. Even worse... he took Tina from me. But not just her, I felt like I lost my whole family. My son moved off for work. My daughter left for school. The exteneded family and friends all went home. This big ole house meant for fun parties with friends and family became my own hell on earth. Everyone is so kind, but I still feel lost. I wonder if the past was done correctly. And for the first time, I don't know where to go from here. I've always had direction in my life! I just give it all to God. I know He never left. I listen much closer now, and I still hear Him. I can hear the whisper of God in this silence he has left me in. Thank you to all my friends and family who have been here. Right when God planned. Thanks to my kids who call and visit in a way that makes me feel so loved! I don't know what is next, but if God gives me 25 more like the last 25... it will be full of love, laughs and joy. Love and laugh each day like it's your last! And thanks Tina Hildebran West for turning me into the person I am. I miss you!